Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Worse Case Scenario

BFN.  No embryos made it to freeze.

I think that it's safe to say that my journey is, unwillingly, over.


30 comments:

Rachel said...

I've been lurking on your blog for a long time, quietly wishing you well.

I'm so, so, so sorry. That sucks beyond anything. It's horribly, horribly wrong and unfair.

Rachel said...

I am so, so sorry.

Shannon said...

there. are. no. words.

Anonymous said...

I've been following you quite a while. Honestly you ought to get a refund since this is a bust donor cycle. I've never heard of a donor cycle ending with nothing to freeze. I am so so sorry, this is totally unfair.

Jen said...

Can't wrap my head around this at all.

You tried so hard and for so long.

I am very sorry.

Jen

Sometimes said...

Oh my god. I am so sorry. I have no words.

Do you know about embryo adoption? Much much much cheaper than any of the other routes.

xoxoxoxoxo

MrsSpock said...

No- so awful. I'm so, so sorry. It's so unfair.

Heather said...

I am so so sorry. (((Hugs)))

Jay said...

I'm so sorry. The universe is a shitbag. And yes, if its a donor cycle, and they came up with only the embies you transferred, then that is sucky indeed.

Wishing you peace and clarity as you regroup.

BigP's Heather said...

I'm so sorry.

Lisa MacLellan said...

I have just started reading your blog and am so saddened by this possible conclusion. I know the pain is horrible and only wish you the best.

Jennifer Ezell said...

so incredibly sorry… keeping you in my prayers.

Erika said...

I don't know what to say and know that nothing I say can ease your pain right now. Like other have said, I am so sorry.

LifeIsArt said...

Just can't believe it. I am so very sorry.

Anonymous said...

Why didn't any of the embryos make it to freeze? What quality were those you had transferred? This seems unfathomable in a donor cycle!!! You should qualify for at least a partial refund! Perhaps something was wrong with all the donor eggs!??! This is just terrible.

Beckie's Infertile said...

This completely sucks! I hate infertility!

I am thinking about you.

Anonymous said...

Its just not fair, and it sucks. No words can make you feel better, im truly sorry. just know im crying for you & praying for closure :(

Kate said...

ohmygosh - NO!!! This sucks so friggin' much. I'm so sorry!

shelli said...

bollucks. It fucking sucks.

Anna said...

I am so, SO very sorry. Be good to yourself and treat yourself well. Lick your wounds and pick up the pieces. Hang in there.

BTW, none of my DE made it to freezing either. From a 24 year old VERY healthy donor. No logic, it is what it is.

Thalia said...

Oh sweetie that is just gutting.

May I ask, can you donor have really been a good donor if nothing made it to freeze? Donor cycles usually generate a real surplus of embryos so it seems fairly shocking not to have anything to freeze.

InfertileFirstMom said...

Noooo. I am so so sorry. I just found your blog via the very few others going through DE right now (my last shot is DE... to begin this spring). I don't understand how none made it to freeze with so many retrieved! I hope you will lean on all of us now, as you process this news and begin to move on. Holding you in my heart.

Anonymous said...

I've been following you for a few years now. I've loved your sense of humor and blatant honesty about just how shitty IF can be. I'm so so very sorry this has happened to you. I had wished for so much more for you - you and Sean certainly deserve it. So sorry again.

Ms. J said...

So very sorry. No magic words :(

John said...

I am about to turn 36 years old, and have been dealing with infertility for quite some time. I am sick and tired of this problem being treated like a horrible disease that should be kept a secret.  Infertility is not a choice it is how god has made you and respecting it is very important. Yes, treatment is a way to correct your problems but discrimination people on infertility basis is wrong ethically and on humanitarian grounds.

Julie Schilling said...

I just sat here and cried for you. For us. For "the infertiles"...the anger, and pain and loss each time you POAS and see nothing. I wish I could tell you its all gonna be alright. Shit. I wish someone would tell me everything was going to work out the way *I* want = a baby in any way it comes to us. However my ears continue to be filled with "relax" "quit trying" "if it's meant to be it will happen" yeah- screw that, tell me how that mom who beat her child to death was meant to be? Sorry that it is so unfair. I hope you can keep sharing. You help me in ways I don't know how to express myself. Thank you.

Anonymous said...

This sucks and I'm sorry. But, I know you will be an awesome mama and ur hubby an awesome daddy to some baby/child waiting to be adopted. You sound like the kind of person that would love ur child so unconditionally no matter what. And those are the kind of patents that are desperately needed. This should not be the end of ur journey to parenthood but the beginning .
Screw not being able to get pregnant!!
You can and will be able to become a mom and no one can stop that! It is a journey with classes and home visits etc. but when u get ur kid/s its all worth it.
Bless you lil mama. Now get to getting!

Pixie said...

I just started reading, I am so sorry. Praying ...

hmm said...

I'm sorry but don't give up

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