Thursday, January 11, 2007

Blah, Blah, Sis Boom Bah

I finally did it. I joined the gym, so I can get this blubber off of my body and I can wear a teeny-weenie bikini on the beach this summer......

BWAHAHAHAHAHA! That was a good one, wasn't it? I think I tinkled in my panties.

Seriously, I did send in the $$ to join a local fitness center (starting with B and ending with an 's). I honestly would've never done it on my own, due to the cost, but we get an educator's discount through our union, which is pretty damn cool. I need to get my ass moving, get physically fit and feeling better about my body. Plus, I got one of those IPod Shuffles for Christmas, and I can't wait to try it out on the treadmill. Now, I just need to get some new sneakers and sweats-they're really old and looking a little tired. M also belongs to the same location (although, through the deal we can go to any location in the country), so we were talking about going together a few days out of the week and be each other's moral support.

Well, what else has been going on? School has settled in, although not in the smoothest of ways. It didn't help that one of the BD kids flipped out last week (he had to be removed from school in an ambulance), so it put people on edge. That, and the visit from the Dept of Ed at our other school-there was a scurrying about to prep and primp and show our best work. It was one of the few times that I was glad I'm not a classroom teacher-they don't really care about the "Specials" as much, and I wasn't under the scrutiny.

Nothing much on the fertility front, unless you can count waiting for "You Know Who" (and no, it ain't Voldemort). I've decided that this month I'll be calling it "Playing banjo in Sgt. Zygote's Ragtime Band"-it sounds catchy, no? Once that happens, we'll be on board for "FET#4-The Last of the Red-Hot Embryos". We're really hoping that perhaps these 3-day ones might be a little stronger for us and, uh.........perhaps work. Although I know that it's a lot to ask, but I'll dare to.

I do have to say I'm quite proud to made it through the holidays with the minimum amount of feeling down, which is a positive thing. And, that's even with not one, but two pregnancy announcements (one from Sean's cousin and his wife, who go to our church, the other, his best friend S). I'm actually amazed that it didn't upset me as it usually would. Could it be that perhaps I'm more accepting of my infertility? Or maybe I'm more accepting of my fate-I've come to the point that I almost expect the FET's to fail, and, to be honest, if it did work for me I'd be shocked. Who knows, really. But, I do know this-I need to see it through to the end, whatever the outcome. Whether or not we'll continue treatments after this has never been discussed. There's never been a "Plan B". Sean once mentioned that he's not altogether comfortable with adoption, which I have to respect. A decision like that has to be in 100% agreement, and you can't force someone to do something that they aren't sure of. Anyways, we aren't at that point of a "Plan B" yet. We still have a little fight left in us.

And we're going to fight like hell.

7 comments:

Shelli said...

And we'll be fighting with you. er, FOR you, yeah, that's what I meant - not, you know, fighting with you - because that'd be bad. But fighting FOR you!

You know what I mean...

heh.

Alice said...

Well, thanks to you, I've recommitted myself to exercise. I used to be an avid runner. THEN I got a job with a horrible commute and well, now I'm lucky if I get two runs in a week. I've just found out that the gym (one street over) is open at 6 am (aack). So, I'm going there in the morning! So, thanks for inspiring me. Also, here's to a successful outcome in your future.

Carol said...

Glad to hear that you are still going to fight. You go girl!

Margo said...

Ah I wish I had the will power to join a gym. I suffer from a complete and utter lack of motivation do drag my lazy ass off the couch. So why spend the money? Maybe next month...

I just found your blog, and I am in complete agreement with the title so I am adding you to my blogroll.

cat said...

Glad the holidays were not too messed up. Rah Rah Sis Boom Bah we will be surrounding the ropes cheering you one during the whole fight. I hope it's a knockout!

St. Cecilia said...

S, glad you got some fight left in you. DH and I are considering throwing in the towel.

Secondly, we must be cyber sisters or something because for the first time in a long time I threw some weights around yesterday. I, too, am feeling tired of feeling badly about my body. It's not fat but too soft for my taste anymore.

Tara said...

I can relate to the pregnancy announcements. I also had to endure one those this holiday season.

I also find it fascinating that this year in early December we came out to everyone that we had fertility problems. And this year we received no less than 10 photo's of friend's babies / children inside Christmas cards.

But I'm ok with that.

No, really, I'm ok.