Thursday, March 01, 2007

Oink, Oink

Can you hear that? That oinking sound coming from your computer?

That's me. 'Cause I'm a big fat pig.

I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror right now. I actually got on the scale today (after digging it out of the bottom of the hall closet) and was shocked to see the needle hovering around 153lbs. Holy fucking shit.

Okay, before you say that's not a lot, it is for me, since I'm normally around 135lbs. I'm only about five-four and a half, and, although my chest is large (now up to a 34DD from a 34D), it's my belly that's the problem. The belly that is now every so obviously hanging over my pants. The belly that no shirt can completely cover. The belly that jiggles and gives a "muffin top" (hell, let's get real-it's a bundt cake) over every pair of pants I own.

And my thighs and ass.......oh my GOD. I actually now am beginning to resemble a whole oven stuffer roaster that's been lifted up so it's "standing" up-big belly and thighs and small from the knees down.

It's time to take off the pounds and get my life back in order.

It's about fucking time, as far as I'm concerned

14 comments:

Nickie said...

muffin top - too funny! makes me hungry though.

have fun whipping your butt into shape! well worth the work it takes.

OHN said...

My goal weight is 153 and I am only a teensy bit taller than you! I need to quit stuffing my fat face. I want to be able to buckle my jeans AND bend over, not one or the other..shit is really sucks that everything that tastes good can kill you and everything that is good for you makes you want to curl up and die.

Shelli said...

I would LOVE to be 153 - sigh.

But I hear you honey. OH how I hear you.

Love to you.

Anna said...

Oh Sweeite, I'm right there with you. I'm 157 and 5' 6". 135 would be absolutely brilliant for me. I know I need to excercise regularly and cut out the sugar - I have a major sweet tooth.

Hey, you want to work on this together, blogging style? We could help support each other and warn each other away from the chocolates and biscotti. Either way, I'm rooting for you too. You can do it!

the queen said...

and when you figure out how to lose the muffin top can you please share cuz I'm in the same muffin boat.
eerily similar height, weight and freaking bra size! arrrggggg

Jessica said...

I have to say my goal weight is a tad higher than that and I'm shorter than you! LOL. But I know when you are not use to it- it's depressing. When you are done beating yourself back into shape, can you come over here and be my drill sargeant too.

Thalia said...

You're really not a big fat pig, sweetie. You are a teensy bit overweight, and obviously more overweight than you are comfortable with, but you are most definitely not a big fat pig, not at a BMI of 26.3. By all means get down the gym but don't beat yourself up about it, ok?

Kristy said...

I'm in the same boat. almost exactly . Weighed myself this morning 151 and usually 135. Let's say I have a closetfull of clothes that are "unwearable". I started my diet Wednesday :)

Alice said...

I'm having the same issue--and just wrote about it. Don't beat yourself up too much about it though. Your body and mind have been through a lot lately. BUT, I know how it can drive you crazy. I hear you, sister!

Kimmer said...

Same height as you, when I started IVF I weighed in at 125, 130 on a bloated pms day, I now weigh 140 and I haven't shot up since July, so I have no excuse. I hate feeling like this, hate it. Just went back to the gym last week and thought I was going to have a damn heart attack! It feels good to exercise, does something for my spirit! But sucks getting back in the groove of things, good luck with the exercise!

Jennifer said...

I loved it when I reached my goal...go for it!

Gwyn said...

A friend of mine sent me your blog and I've been reading up on it, but there's so much. Would you mind giving us newbies a recap of your life? My husband and I have been trying for over two years. We just tried our second IUI, but to no avail. At least you know what's wrong with you. I'm unexplained infertility. The drugs have been making me ultra cranky. They totally fuck with your emotions. If the next IUI doesn't work, then our last hope is IVF. I'm a little scared about that, but I'm hoping we won't have to cross that bridge.

Fellow Jersey Girl

vixanne wigg said...

I'll take your "fat" weight any day. But since you're still entitled to the pity party, I'll indulge you. ;)

Good luck in losing weight. Why does it have to be so hard?????

Lut C. said...

I'm too lazy to convert that into kilo's right now. But with a BMI of 26 you're way ahead of me. And you have curves in better places.

Working out gives those lovely endorfin highs, so knock yourself out.