Tuesday, March 25, 2008

9dp3dt-When it Rains, it Pours

Yeah, yeah......still BFN......can't help myself. I've started cramping this afternoon, however, so who the hell knows what is going on.

However, we've been given some sad news last night. My 96 year old grandfather died last evening, in my grandmother's arms. He's been ill for a long time (a series of strokes, surviving stomach/esophagus cancer), but it was still a shock to get the call last night.

We've been frantically trying to figure out how the hell we're getting to Boston (and where we're staying) for the wake/funeral. Flights are fricking expensive as hell, and of course hotels aren't much better there (staying with relatives isn't an option, as they live in the North End). The services are set for Thursday and Friday. Thursday also happens to be beta day. I'm thinking of calling the RE's office to see if I can come in tomorrow for my beta instead-I'm not sure if one day or not will make a difference. We're probably not flying out until later Thursday morning, so I could feasibly still go to the RE's office. But, if it's a BFN, and I don't know about it, then I still have to travel with injection supplies on the plane, which would blow big time. Not to mention having to spill the beans to my parents, who didn't know we even did a cycle. Not really a good time to explain it all, is it?

So, as I mentioned, there's lots of things to arrange. It's keeping my mind off of whether or not any embryos are alive in there.

My grandfather isn't even my biological grandfather-my grandmother married him four or five years after her first husband (my dad's father) died. They were introduced by his sister, who was a friend of my grandmothers and lived in the same development in Florida. He married for the first time in his late 60's, and it was to my grandmother. He had no children. So, he got a ready-made family with us. And he always treated us as if we were his own. He bought me my first car, he made it possible for both my brother and I to go to whatever college we wanted to, debt-free. If we had wanted to go to law or medical school, he would have made it happen financially as well. Yes, he was extremely well-off, but he was the type of person who was generous and did it of his own free will, and with a glad heart. If it weren't for him, I probably wouldn't be where I am today. It's because of him that I went to Seton Hall, where I met Sean, where I got my degree and eventually went into education. So, you see, I owe him a lot. He was a wonderful man-he had a great sense of humor, with a thick "Nahth End" accent, intelligent as hell and loved having a good time.

I'll miss you, grandpa. Thank you for being who you were. You will be missed dearly.


Shelli said...

oh sweetie, I'm so sorry for your loss.

May you be comforted among the mourners of Zion.

Jodi said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Your post made me get tears in my eyes. Your Grandfather sounds like a wonderful generous person. I am sure he has a very special in Heaven.

Keeping you in my prayers during this time.

Anna said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather's passing, It sounds like he had a wonderful life, and I'm glad your life was enriched through knowing him.

I'm keeping everything crossed for good results on your beta...Best wishes, S.

squarepeg said...

I'm terribly sorry about your grandfather. And yes - bad things seem to come in clusters. I call it "shit on shit." Here's hoping with everything that the crappy events are over, and that your beta - whenever it is, delivers a much deserved surprise.

Melzie said...

I'm sorry to hear about your grandpa... many thoughts headed your way... may you find a semi-cheap flight and hotel. Many other thoughts to the southern region... good luck!

Jen said...

I am so sorry. I will be thinking about you.

Shauna Wagner said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.