Wednesday, October 07, 2009

13dp5dt

Yeah, well.....it's not a good ending.

Beta 9.9 I have to stop progesterone, be back on Friday for more bloodwork to make sure that the beta is going down, and make a follow-up with the doctor.

I also get to do the Rhogam therapy tomorrow at the hospital, due to being Rh negative. Yay....another sick day taken due to this. Wonderfuckingful.

Oh, did I mention it's also my anniversary? Yeah. Happy Anniversary Sean. Too bad my gift to you is another dead baby. Who knew we'd be having THIS MUCH FUN nine years later.

What. The. Fuck.

27 comments:

Michelle said...

I'm sorry. You're, both, in my prayers.

Kate said...

This stinks! I'm sorry...

Ms. J said...

I am deeply sorry for your loss, and all of the awfulness.

If I had a magic wand I would wave it ... But I know there aren't even words sufficient to touch your hurt.

Kim said...

I'm so sorry. There's nothing else to say, I'm just so sorry.

Marla.z said...

I am so sorry...

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry.

Dawn said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Heather said...

I'm so sorry.

Congratulations on nine years together.

Thinking of you.

Erin said...

I'm so sorry. I know how much this sucks.

Jessica said...

it boggs my mind - really it does. I'm so sorry, I know no words will heal these wounds. Just know I'm thinking of you.

Anna said...

Oh, S. I am so very sorry for you both. How awful. Hang in there and just try to be there for each other. Hugs to you both on your anniversary.

Meghan said...

Oh damn, I'm so sorry. I wish I had something to help heal your pain

Shelli said...

oh fuck, man.

Love you

Aunt Becky said...

I am so, so sorry to hear this.

Thalia said...

bollocks I am sorry

K77 said...

I'm sorry.

Jen said...

My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry.

Kath said...

I'm so very sorry, dear S. What awful news. To have that promise, and to have it snatched away like that after all this time...

Thinking of you on your bleak anniversary.

Dana said...

Stef,
I'm so, so sorry! That really sucks. You're all in my prayers.
Hugs
Dana

Jude said...

I am so incredibly sorry. :(

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry to hear the news. I just recently started reading your blog after going through a transfer myself (still waiting to hear the results), and your blog gives me so much hope. Stay strong and happy anniversary.

squarepeg said...

Jeebus. That just sucks. "I'm sorry" seems really inadequate.

Lut C. said...

I'm sorry the news was bad, as bad as you feared. The timing is just fabulous, but the timing of thises thigns always is.

How I wish things were different for you.

Anonymous said...

Hi there,

Found your blog after doing ivf a week after you. Thank you for having the courage to write about your experiences. I have laughed and cried reading about what you have gone through. I just found out this morning that it didn't work for me either.....wishing you the best at this awful time.

Julie said...

I'm so sorry for you both.

Liza said...

I'm so sorry. How awful.

Ali said...

I'm so sorry. It sucks. It really f'n sucks.