Saturday, June 03, 2006

Falling Off The Saddle, At Least, For Now...

As of today, the retrieval is set for Monday morning. As to what time, I won't know until later this afternoon, when I get the phonecall from the nurse.

There are still 20+ follicles in there, and they've really grown in just 24 hours. I've got a few at 20mm, the rest are ranging from 12-17mm. Hopefully we're looking at a fair number of eggs retrieved, because.........

My E2 levels on Thursday were 2100, Friday's were over 3000, and today will be 4000 (or more). Due to this, Dr Pipsqueak and Dr. C feel that a transfer this cycle is out of the question, due to the growing (hah!) likelihood of OHSS. So, we'll have all the eggs retrieved, fertilized, and frozen, and transfer them after a rest cycle (we're talking late July/August). They're even halving my HCG trigger from 10,000 units to 5,000 to avoid hyperstimulation afterwards, and I have to go in yet again tomorrow morning for bloodwork and a date with the Follicular Lurve Wand to see what's up.

Fuck. FUCKFUCKFUCK! Why can't a fresh cycle go smoothly for me, just once? It ain't too much to ask, really.

I know, I know........it could be a lot worse. I could be a poor responder, have shitty lining issues, blahblahblah.....but it still sucks. What I really want to know is why, every time I have a fresh cycle, my estradiol gets so out of control. I don't have PCOS, everything else is normal......so, what the fuck?

Dr. C was very nice about it all. She said that she knew that it's not easy for me to hear, considering my history, but that they want me as healthy as possible for a good transfer. Plus, if they did a transfer and I somehow got pregnant, I'd definitely hyperstimulate, and that's more dangerous than if I wasn't pregnant. She said that someone in my situation (doing a "freeze-all" cycle) at Big Important Clinic has an 85% percent success rate. And, there's a good chance I can do another natural cycle, which means no more drugs.

Considering that my two fresh cycles failed and the only time I got pregnant was on a frozen cycle, it makes sense. So, why don't I feel better about this?

8 comments:

Jessica said...

I could imagine the disappoinment as nothing is going according to plan and when does it really ever? but did you need another reminder? no! I'm sorry, I am glad they have your best interest at heart and I'm hoping 'everything is happening for a GOOD reason' so to speak.

Thoughts and prayers with you.
:hugs:

Lut C. said...

Though the news isn't all bad, it means waiting. No one likes waiting.

Hang in there!

Pamplemousse said...

They really are doing the best thing for your health. We forget that IVF is only controlled hyperstimulation and sometimes people like you just have ovaries that go mad at the first sniff of gonadotrophins!!

I know you will be very disappointed and feeling really bad but the stats are good for a FET and you will feel like a new woman on a natural FET cycle. Good luck on Monday and get prepared now for after trigger and retrieval.

Meg said...

S- That's crap - and you must be so uncomfortable. Let us know what happens. x

cat said...

Been thinking about you and am sending out good vibes for things to go smoother from here on out. Love to you.

Thalia said...

I'm sorry S, how incredibly disappointing. But if they knew this, why didn't they just start you on a really really low dose instead of starting you at a normal dose and then downing it?

I know the waiting will suck, but it sounds like the right decision right now. I hope you have a wonderful crop retrieved and that everything fertilises so you have loads of insurance.

ilyse said...

Awww S, I'm sorry. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Shelli said...

oh, erp -= I read today's post before this one - FUCKEDY FUCK CUCK!



Oh sweetie - well, I DO hope that teh fet cycle gets you knowcked up REAL GOOD....