Saturday, August 25, 2012

Ugh

BFN.  Again.

Dr. P made the phone call-she seems just as frustrated as we are right now.  The team will meet within the next two weeks to discuss the cycle and hopefully see if there are any answers they can give us.

At least she and I are on the same page-that there is something, some freak-ass thing that a doctor might see once in a lifetime, going on.  We've had two healthy cycles using my own eggs via PGD and a donor cycle that failed-there's got to be something that everyone's missing.  Hopefully they'll find out.

That is all.  I'm going to order a Mega-Sushi platter and get drunk as fuck until AF shows up.  I guess I'll post more as I hear it.

Fuck.  Fuck. Fuck.

33 comments:

Sometimes said...

I am so very sorry.

Ms. J said...

I'm glad the doc is frustrated and empathetic about it.

Yes, go eat it all, and go shopping. Go somewhere only you and hubby can. Stay out late, sleep in. Cry. Be angry. Most of all, blog.

Xoxo.

Anonymous said...

i'm so so sorry.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry, I feel your frustration. I just had my 3rd failed IVF and everything looks good with me and the embryos - no idea why they aren't sticking around. Martini's helped me with my news...I hate unexplained crap like this.

Anonymous said...

Sending you love & large G&Ts xx

Anonymous said...

Have you been tested for beta integrins? CCRM tests for this in cases lime yours (never had implantation with multiple IVFs). It's worth mentioning to your doc, especially since even with donor eggs and normals nothing implanted. The treatment is depot Lupron and lots of people gave had success after treatment.

Shelli said...

You may never know. Will you be OK with that? I'm always happy to bring you over to the adoption side, it's not that bad...

Love you.

Anonymous said...

I've been waiting for you to post and my heart sank when I read it. I'm so sorry. There are no words - just allow yourself to feel the way you feel and treat yourself to whatever it is you want to do - be good to yourself...you deserve the world.

Anonymous said...

I've been waiting for you to post and my heart sank when I read it. I'm so sorry. There are no words - just allow yourself to feel the way you feel and treat yourself to whatever it is you want to do - be good to yourself...you deserve the world.

Artichoke said...

So sorry to hear that. Hand in there. :(

Artichoke said...

Han_g_ in there. Shouldn't type so fast.

Kate said...

I'm so sorry. This sucks.

LuvnMySailor said...

Ugh. I'm really sorry. Sucky suck suck. Enjoy that sushi and big, tall., cold drink!

Anna said...

Oh, man. I am so very sorry. I was praying this would be the one. At least they'll review the cycle to try to figure out what's going wrong. Hang in there. I hope the sushi was delicious.

Lisa said...

BFN always sucks! how terrible. :( try to stay positive. i hope they offer some insight as to what may be happening soon. good luck and keep us posted.

Anonymous said...

I feel exactly like you... My 2nd IVF and transfer was scheduled for this morning but it had to be postponed for tomorrow because the embryos are not developing as expected. The same happened first time and doctor can not explain why. They though that it was the sperm but now with donor the same happened. It is so frustrating and sad. Can't sleep and found your blog... Will probably share the idea of a huge tray of sushi for dinner tomorrow. So upsetting!

Anonymous said...

How are you doing?

TheRedhead said...

So very sorry.

Erika P said...
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Erika P said...

I've spent the last couple of days devouring your blog as I'm on the road to my first IVF in the next month after 9 years of trying and feeling the ticking time bomb that is my biological clock (I'm almost 38). I'm so sorry for all you've had to endure but I am so grateful you've shared your story. So many things you typed really hit home with me, the feeling of hopelessness, anger, pity, all of it. You are an amazingly strong woman and, again, thank you for sharing.

JM said...

I am so sorry it happened again...:( I so much know how is sucks :(.... Hang in tehre, and hope that the team reccomends something that make you feel on track again. Thinking of you (HUGS)

Ashley said...

I'm so sorry! I recently started my first IVF cycle, and I've been glued to your blog since finding out I was infertile earlier this year. I've been checking back almost everyday since this post to see if you've updated. Please let us know how you're doing and if you've gotten any answers. Praying for you!

Thalia said...

Oh sweetie I am so sorry. Just so sad.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sad for you too. I, like all of us, was really hoping for an implantation ...a pregnancy...a baby.
I still hope for you...happiness and motherhood-no matter which way it comes.

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Anonymous said...

This sounds crazy! All of that crap trying to get pregnant. Unfortunately I had 7 and I'm 9 months with what will be my last child and last year I ended up signing adoption papers on my son. I revoked my consent and never got my son back because the lady is can't have a baby crazy like all of you! Disgusting! Adoption is the worst thing a mother can do and you people are sick

Anonymous said...

Don't listen to that last comment. She obviously doesn't know what it is like to so desperately long for your own child. Some people are just so mean spirited and selfish with their words. Please do not allow her ignorance make you feel worse than you already do.
Good luck and God Bless.

Anonymous said...

Don't listen to the moron from September 10th! She clearly has no idea how it feels.....

Anonymous said...

I pray that God Blesses you with a child. Ultimately man can only do so much and then that's it.But I still believe in miracles and perhaps it's your turn to receive a miracle of your very own. I pray it is.

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