Monday, April 25, 2005

Big Fucking Negative

Nursey P just called.

The beta was negative, so I'm not pregnant.

I had a feeling that I wasn't, not that I was being negative, but I just had that weird feeling-I guess that I was right.

Fuck. This was the closest I've ever been to being pregnant, and now it's over. I meet with the RE on Friday to discuss the cycle-I mean, what's to discuss? It didn't work.......isn't that obvious?

I'm just so damn tired of all of this. I don't think that I can do this again.

I feel like I'm close to a nervous breakdown.

I hate my body-it's just another form of betrayal, as far as I'm concerned.

3 comments:

cat said...

Crap and double crap. I'm here if you want to chat or scream or whatever. I know how mad you are. Wish that there was anything to say or do to make it better. Sending you love and will be thinking of you.

vixanne wigg said...

I'm so sorry. :( I wish I could make things better. Lots of hugs. :( :( :(

Shelli said...

oh sweetheart - how fucking horrible. ::::hugs:::::