Monday, February 19, 2007

It Didn't Work

That pretty much sums it up, right?

All 18 embryos are gone. That's it. We have to start from the beginning-a fresh cycle.

Doesn't it suck that crack 'ho's get to have slews of kids and I can't even manage to have one? Or that two of my work colleagues, who had been having an affair with each other for years, divorced their spouses and married each other a month ago are "suddenly" three and a half months pregnant? Boy, what have we been doing wrong?

The moral of the story: Crack 'ho's and adulterers are obviously more fit in the eyes of God to be parents than Sean and me. So, don't try to live a good life, be morally just, or do the right thing-because that will have you end up screwed.

Thanks, God. For nada.

25 comments:

carrie said...

Oh, I'm so so sorry. That just sucks so incredibly much. I don't understand why its so difficult for those of us wanting this so bad, and so easy for those not wanting it. Life is just so unfair. SO sorry you're going through this right now.

Carol said...

wow. I am really, really sorry.

Michelle said...

I have been lurking for a long time, and this is my first comment. I just wanted to say I'm sorry, for what it's worth. It truly does suck.

Thalia said...

Oh crap, S I'm so so sorry. The one thing I'm holding on to is that fresh cycles have better success rates. I hope it doesn't take much more stress and expense for you to finally become a family. It's horrible and unfair and totally inexplicable.

My Reality said...

I am sorry.

vixanne wigg said...

I'm so sorry. I keep hoping for you. It just sucks. Big time.

Sunny Jenny said...

Just coming to offer my condolences. No words can really express how shitty this whole deal is. I am so sorry.

M said...

Hugs hun....I am sorry and know that I can't make it any better for you, but all I can say is that I understand it sucks and isn't fair...and I question much of the things you question.

Shelli said...

oh honey.

I love you.

squarepeg said...

fuck all. I'm really, really sorry :(

Anna said...

OMG. I am so sorry. This is horrible. I am so sorry that you still have to go throught the IVF circus. ART is so hard because you never know if it will eventually work. It's like you just have to keep hoping and trying. Dear gods I REALLY hope this works for you guys, sooner rather than later. I am so sorry S. Please hang in there. You and Sean are in my thoughts.

Adrienne said...

Damn, I'm so sorry.

It is absolutely mindboggling that a meth-smoking prostitute gets knocked up easier than the rest of us. I think my next step is to find one of those meth-smoking prostitutes, knock her out and harvest me some eggs - cause mine sure as hell ain't workin'.

I hope your next cycle rings the bell.

Kath said...

Dear S, I'm so incredibly sorry to hear this.

You're right, there is no rhyme or reason to any of this. None at all.

Lut C. said...

I can hear you banging your head against the wall. Please stop that. Do you want to do plastic surgery as well?

Not funny, I know. None of this is funny.

Nickie said...

Fuck. I'm sorry. So unbelievably unfair.

dawn said...

I'm sorry

ellie said...

I am so sorry. It definately sucks that the process is not fair-- I wish I could change that- it would certainly save the world from unhappy drug addict babies and children with learning problems. I hope you take some time out for yourself. The process is long, and it just sucks- no way t be nice about it. But I am wishing you the best and I will keep watching your blog for updates.

Jessica said...

I'm so freakin sorry. I thought about you all day today and how I would give anything to see you succeed in all of this.

Artblog said...

I'm so very, very, very sorry it didn't work out for you :(

God damn crack 'hos'!

Watson said...

So, so sorry.

God what suckage!

Jennifer said...

you poor disenchanted thing.
very sucking.

Tara said...

I'm going out to buy a crack pipe today.

I'm truly very sorry for you.

laura said...

Oh, god. I'm so very sorry. Do not discount yourself ... you are absolutely qualified, and very deserving. Hell of a lot more than the crack ho's and cheaters.

Anonymous said...

Since it's my first comment here, I must say I'm really sorry too. For years they are trying to investigate the causes of infertility, but it seams it would take much more time to find the answers and the cures. So what should people like us do, except waiting and hoping.
http://www.fertility-help.com

Margo said...

I am so very sorry.