A Chance At Hope

I'll be there in two hours and 45 minutes. Wow.

How do I feel about this FET? Well, I've got some mixed feelings about this one. Not that I think that it's going to or not going to work, but I don't dare to hope that this will work out. I'm afraid to think of it at all, really. I try as hard as possible to put it from my mind, so as not to dwell on the "what if's". I am excited though-it's like a new chance at hope. But I don't want to be let down yet again, and right before Thanksgiving too (that's when the beta is-two days before Thanksgiving). Plus, I have a performance tonight, and I'm having slight anxiety that perhaps doing a FET today, then performing tonight isn't the best thing to help those chances along. Although, I was in the same situation for my first FET, and it initially worked, so........

You see why I can't let myself think about it-it just makes me mental (or, even more mental than normal).

The Doryx is killing me-the STENCH coming from my lower digestive tract is enough to euthanize a large farm animal. Thank GOD I take my last tablet tonight. I might have to take some anti-gas stuff, or else I'll end up suffocating my dressing room mate tonight. Although, I could blame it on the guys using our bathroom (in the theater, our dressing room is on the first floor, and it's the only one with a bathroom, so others use it besides us). That's the one plus about being one of two women in a 26 member cast-you can blame shit like that (pardon the pun) on the guys. Heh.

In other news, we got a write-up in one of the local newspapers about the show, and the reviewer loved it! I got the link sent to me by a castmate, and when I opened it up I saw a picture of myself and the two guys that play Franklin and Adams on the top-woot! The reviewer called me "the picture of charm, with a dash of sauciness". I swear, I don't know the guy, but he's got my number, all right.....well, at least I'm not belching, swearing, and telling dirty jokes onstage-then everyone would know that I'm not acting-it's all me.

Well, off I go to shower and not use any fragrances (Lut, I did get your comment, and I was told that the reason for that is since the transfer is done in the operating room, they want a sterile environment. They also want no chemical residue on you that could possibly damage the embryos.). I'll be back on later today to give you the report.

Please, please let there be something to transfer. Please let them be strong and healthy.

Please, let this work.