Thanks ladies, for your kind words about my last post. I'm doing okay, no worse, but not wonderful.
I sort of talked with Sean on Sunday night about what's going on in my head (at least, as best as I can verbalize them), and he feels that I would benefit by "talking to someone" (ie. therapy). Don't get me wrong, I'm not adverse to the idea, but it's a big decision for me. I'm not sure that I can open up to someone that I don't know. Then again, I blog my inner thoughts for all of the Internet to see, so why not, right?
The answer is this: my husband, family and non-IF friends have no idea that this blog exists. I don't feel judged by them. I am, for the most part, anonymous.
Sean told me that he's concerned for me, especially since there's a history of mental issues in my family. My aunt is bipolar-she was diagnosed in her thirties and had many episodes until they figured out her personal drug cocktail. However, when she went off the deep end she was always delusional and manic, not depressed. Anyway, I digress.
Firstly, I do have mental health benefits under my insurance, which is good. However, I would like to try to find someone (if I do decide to pursue it) who specializes in IF, or, even better, someone who has personal experience in IF (a stretch, I know). I'm still on the fence, though.
In other news, I have an appointment with Dr. Vest on Columbus Day to talk about my next IVF cycle, which should be fun (NOT!). Then I'm sure the meds will be ordered and the fun will begin. I'm also thinking about doing accupuncture along with the cycle-I've heard that, if anything, it will help with stress, which is a positive thing. There's a woman I know from the theatre world that did accu along with her IVF, and she's convinced that it helped her get pregnant. Anyone out there done it? Is it painful? How often do you go and how do you find someone reputable? I'm not sure if I can deal with more needles in my body, but hey, if it helps, I'll suck it up.
I'll do anything to make this next cycle work out.