Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Who Said Escapism Is A Bad Thing?

Thanks again for the wonderful comments. It makes me feel much less mental than I think I am. It does help, truly.

Sean and I decided that we need to get away, just the two of us, with no pressure to do anything or go anywhere. We've been through so much in the past year or so, and I feel that we need to reconnect with each other and remember why we're together, and to be happy again. Sean was the first to mention it, actually-he suggested Disney World, since I'd never really been there (well, I was, for a half-hour, but we'll get into that at another time....), but it was way too expensive. Plus, there would be tons of kids there (we're limited as to when we could go, given my school schedule), and that wasn't the point of this holiday. So, I was looking online and went onto the Royal Caribbean website-they had a 5 day cruise leaving out of Tampa to Mexico that was just up our alley. Plus-the only thing they had left on the boat was Junior Suites, and they were DIRT CHEAP....so we went for it. We figure that this is our time to pamper ourselves-fuck it all.

We also talked about our appointment last Friday. He kept reminding me that there is no pressure right now to make any choices, that we still have some time. I think that I'm leaning towards the laparoscopy, but I'm afraid that, given that Murphy's Law is somehow attached to my life like a bad hairpiece, they'd go in to see what's cooking and I'll somehow end up with major work, they'd have to do a laparotomy, and I'd end up in the hospital for a few days. Yes, I'm probably worrying for naught, but you know what they say-prepare for the worse, hope for the best. Although, that would also mean going out on disability, which would mean no school.....hmmm......

Seriously, I know, deep down, that it's the best thing to do-my mother told me that she thought that I should have done it a long time ago-but, of course, it isn't at the top of my list of "Things I Want To Experience Before My Ovaries Dry Up". Oh, well.....life ain't easy.

I'm just trying to make it through each day-every day that I don't have a nervous breakdown is an accomplishment. It's not easy, but I can try.


Shelli said...

all you have to focus on is getting me a magnet.

nothing more, nothing less.

enjoy the cruise!


(and yes, I think a lap is a faboo idea - things alwasy tend to look a little better than they do on a sonogram once they go in, and I know LOADS who have gotten preggers after a lap...)

But focus on the cruise for now - HOW AWESOME!

Lindy said...

The lap sounds like a good idea, but for now... a cruise! Yay for you!!! So will you go the week after Christmas or what?

I'm so glad you guys decided to do it!

S said...

We'll be leaving the day after Easter for five days-I'd have loved to be on a cruise for Christmas/New Year's, but, alas, Sean used up all his vacation time-bugger!

Magnets galore for Shelli-I'll try to find a dirty one for you....


Heh, my word verification is "gwell"-rhymes with "swell", "smell", and HELL!!!HAHAHAHAHHA!

Lisa said...

Hey there,
Just wanted you to know that you are in my thoughts. I follow your journey and am sorry for this last disappointment. I really admire your honesty.
Take care,

cat said...

Oh a Holiday! Yah. Sounds wonderful. You guys deserve every lovely minute of it. Hope it's a blast.

Whatever you decide. We will be here rooting for you.

Dream Mommy said...

Enjoy you're cruise! My husband and I are going on a 7 day one in May.