Monday, August 22, 2005

I Was Wrong....

It started.

Of course, it had to start right before I left for rehearsal tonight.

I feel like shit. In fact, I feel so shitty that I just took a Tylenol with codeine, just to get rid of the pain (and self-medicate too, if you know what I mean).

Fuck. FUCK.

I'll let the RE's office know tomorrow afternoon when they call.....guess there's no doubt, then.

This fucking SUCKS.

I hate my body-yet again it's betrayed me. And, there's nothing I can do about it.

Which sucks most of all, really.


Julie said...

Damn it all to hell - I was starting to get my hopes up for you. I'm so sorry. Sometimes it all feels like one big practical joke (haha, fooled ya again). Fucking universe, cut us a break once in a while.
I'm really sorry, S.

Heather said...

So sorry. I was really hopeful too.

cat said...

Awe crap S that totally sucks. My thoughts and prayers are with you today and always. We are mourning with you. Surround yourself with quiet, peace and time to process this. If there is anything I can do you know that I'm here.

Shelli said...

damn. fuck shit piss.

This is a big loss honey, and just allow it to be.

We are soooo sorry.

much much love to you. Call if you need to, and know you are loved.

Holly Golightly said...

:( I'm so sorry for you. I was hoping we could continue this journey together!! You're in my thoughts.